finally, i have the motivation to blog again.

anyway, there's good news.

i got preallocated my 2 micro and macro econs mods!

guess it's not in high demand,

aha.

but it's really saving bid points for me.

YAYE.

2 econs mods at a total of 2 points.

=D

this makes up for the waste of points i lost when i changed lecture group for soci last sem.

now i have plenty of points left for se1101e, ssa1201 and another mod i have not thought of yet.

what should i take for my last mod???

gems are expensive.

and i wanna take sth with the girls.

maybe i could try plopping my butt into the stats mod.

ok, just checked,

there's no way i can take stats.

exam clashes with my micro econs.

yaye, final exam and semester 1 is over!

time flies.

no, time can't fly.

el students should know that one.

but i don't think i quoted it correctly.

fell super duper ill to the max yesterday.

just before my last paper today.

oh man, hope i get well quickly, cepat-cepat!

1st semester is done.

7 more semesters to go, sigh.

if only i could graduate now.

AHA.

sushi buffet on wed

and shopping on thurs!

whee.

what the pong, it's freaking warm!

it must be about 35 degrees outside.

need cold air nowww.

hoho, hiding in the comforts of my cool abode.

went downstairs to buy food.

it was just 15 minutes in the open,

and i was starting to sweat.

mad to the max la.

what happened to all that raining and flooding just a few days ago??

i suspect one thing.

the rich people along bukit timah road must have bribed scientists to formulate some equipment to reduce rainfall.

tsk.

oh my tian ah.

i went to the window,

and noticed there was a burning smell.

oO

it's hari raya public holiday this friday!

whee, and the boyboy's coming out early this week =D

sigh,

i have a brand new old body thanks to this final exam period.

current record:

left shoulder ache, right shoulder ache [coz of the way i sit or the heavy books i carry in my bag]

right hip ache [coz of sitting for hours on end]

left ear painful [coz of wearing spectacles for studying and exam]

one more paper to freedom!

but have lotsa things to do after exams also.

super long list:

shopping with I, S,

running with I, S,

swimming with I, S,

read thailand guide book,

settle thailand trip with Jie,

watch my backlog of movies [heh heh],

taiwan trip with mum,

comm parade,

sell philo and soci books,

settle next sem's modules,

get next sem's econs books,

read up econs for next sem,

meetup with jc girls,

pre-christmas shopping!,

comm ball,

christmas activities,

post-christmas shopping!

2 papers down!

2 more to go!

choo choo, gambate, choo choo.

oh man,

studying makes me bonkers.

miss my fellow piggy parts =(

and of coz the black big piggy.

tmw's econs paper.

monday's el paper.

choo choo.

i don't even know what i should aim for this exam.

naturally, the ambitious wish is to get 5 A's.

A- also can.

but i don't even know my standard in the uni (it's not 'level' or 'cohort' anymore)

so how can i make a practical wish?

are wishes meant to be practical in the first place?

i don't know what's my competition like.

and knowing the competition is crucial.

as what Sun Tzu implied, you must know your enemy to defeat him.

maybe my enemy is not my fellow uni-mates.

maybe it's me.

it's raining again.
ain't complaining, better than the being-baked-in-an-oven feeling.
anyway, i haven't stepped out of the house since monday night.
studying like no tomorrow (oh wait, i dont mind a 'no-tomorrow' scenario now, no exams, WHEE)
sitting for hours on end,
thus getting an expanded butt oO
woke up with a TERRIBLE back ache this morning.
and i have a perpetual shoulder ache on the right side.
can someone remind me what's all these for??
seriously.
MY GOSH.

this saturday marks the first of my final exam papers.

my first time having a paper on saturday and it's at 9 in the MORNING.

slaps them.

but anyway, that paper's philo.

which i have no confidence in and no idea how to ace in it.

when i read the book, i feel like pulling it apart and passing it through my sister's shredder machine.

the machine is superbly convenient at just 2 metres away from my study table.

after that, my papers are on 24th - soci, 25th - econs and 30th - el.

feel super duper sianed this time round.

i've concluded that it's because he's not having exams while i am.

and thus he has much free time,

but i am tied to my studying.

so frustrating and it's pulling me in 2 directions.

but i must persevere!

after adversities, come enjoyment and abundant rewards, girl.

less than 2 more weeks to letting loose.

GAMBATE.

YAYE, am finished and done with one module for the semester!

begone, bahasa =D

am so proud to say i survived through the semester for that module.

had much complains about it at the start.

but basically it was fun and quite similar to malay/english,

thus quite easy to learn.

but oral for language modules is scary!!!

not sure whether i want to put myself through that again =S

see how bah, depends on my bahasa grade.

now i must bia3 for the remaining 4 modules.

WHOO, how exciting.

but it's less than 3 weeks to the last paper, 30th nov!

all the way =)

it's been long since i last heard those 3 words, sad.

sigh,

am still sick.

for 2 weeks alr.

today was mostly a bad day.

got back three papers - bahasa, soci and el proj.

am not sure how my bahasa score fared against the cohort.

hopefully i scored above average.

soci was bad.

el, i have nothing to say about it, sadness.

today i really felt in the dumps.

and so, to uplift my spirits, purchasing things was the perfect solution!

HOHO.

now i've got my hands on my new handphone - a smartphone =D

windows os plus qwerty keyboard.

now my feelings have been neutralised.

so weird that i dont feel excited about my phone.

the dumpy feeling gets the blame.

oh my, mac's mcspicy is the killa!
you get flamed when you eat it,
then you get flamed again a few hours later.
my first experience of the mcspicy.
*tears*
AHA.

bad case of blues =(
i dont want to return to reality.

wow, my mozilla browser looks prettier than my blog skin.
tsk tsk, what a disgrace my blog skin is.
ACK.
so ugly!

but anyway, back to my mozilla.
discovered a new function to it.
or maybe it's not so new, maybe they launched it years ago.
but i just found out how to use it 5 minutes ago.
mozilla browser lets people choose the skin they like for it!
cool-ness.
so i look look look and picked something pretty.
floating hearts are now in the background of the above portion of my browser.
WOO, nice.
and it's opaque at the parts where the file, edit buttons, etc., the website url area, and search engine box are.
my tabs are translucent.
loves it.

that's about it,
the boundaries of my IT skills.
sad, i know.
but doesn't matter!
not life or death.
ladida~

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

oyah, now i rmb.

about me starting to sleep in lectures.

=x

and it's not the same reason as last time in jc lectures.

jc lectures was so boring it put me to sleep.

this time, the philo lecture wasn't boring,

but i still slept!

while xmas white beard mr was talking and making people laugh.

getting not enough sleep.

but it's not extreme (yet), 6.5 hours for the past two nights.

sigh.

hello dear friends,

i know i don't see you as much as you see each other.
and this is going to get worse as time passes.
but it's less within my control than the module's.

i'm tired of past back-stabs, flitting acquaintances, lack of people i can bond with.
you're the first few people i can actually speak openly to,
have common conversation topics with,
things i can relate to.
i'm learning to trust,
trust you with my troubles,
all i ask is you trust me with yours.
and not be the last to know, if i do get to know at all.

i don't want a group of people i just joke around with.
i want to be part of a group of people i can call 'close friends',
people to share jokes and troubles together.

i hope i'm not asking too much.
and i hope you see this.

when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive,
forgiveness doesn't change the past,
but it does enlarge the future
-Mary Karen Read

sociology midterm left.

on this thursday,

still have time to study at a comfortable rate.

but i have been typing out my notes non-stop for 2 hours.

and i can't type properly now =x

18 more days to go.

this time, i'm feeling more numb than the brunei one.

guess that's a good thing.

won't go blind from crying too much then.

but i've got my 2 good friends =)

iris & shermin.

shermin and i are having an affair now.

heehee.

iris secretly wants to join in,

i can tell =D

threesome's a party, the more the merrier!

am going to camp at the airport on 30th to wait for his arrival.

yaye.

anybody want to join me in studying at macs on that night?

happy birthday, Royroy =)

come back soon =(

STRESS.

my green blog is really good for the eyes,

i realised.

yaye,

am pleased =D

OKAYYYY.

anyway,

am not sure whether this emotion i have right now is classified as 'stress'.

HMM.

but that's not important.

what's important is the content i'm memorising from the textbooks!

bye.

oh man,

4 upcoming mid terms:

bahasa, el, econs, soci.

luckily soci is one week after the others.

or i'll just die of lack of time.

am so not prepared AT ALL.

shoot me man.

SOBS =(((((

i have 1 week left to midterms.

and 9 chapters to finish for econs.

*pulls hair*

shoots, shouldn't have been complacent.

eee,

i realised i dont like dresses that hug the hips.

coz my butt looks big in those.

=x

oh man,

oh man,

OH MAN.

it's always such a headache to find a dress for formal dinners.

like ALWAYS.

i have no idea whether to wear my purple kimono-ish dress for sunday.

for a wedding dinner!

is that appropriate or not??

i dont have any other dresses already!!

superduper in need of SOS now.

stick on something!

it's so ironic, right now i have money to buy clothes, but no clothes for me to buy =x

so weird!

anyway,

i realised after these few weeks,

that i'm no longer such a last minute doer like in the past.

WOOHOO.

that's something that cheers me up.

i've been setting personal deadlines earlier than the official school deadline.

thus completing my term assignments way beforehand.

YAYE.

good job, steph =D

i seriously need all kinds of therapy now!

maybe, except psychological therapy.

i need my retail therapy, boyfriend therapy, sleep therapy, massage therapy.

OH MAN.

ever since school started officially,

it's just been a choo choo train to our inevitable end.

completed my soci term assignment.

5 days before dateline, yaye, so proud of myself =D

and now there's philo term assignment draft,

which is 4-5 pages long.

shoots, i keep thinking it's 2-3 pages long.

BUT IT'S NOT.

shoot me yahh.

and that's just the draft.

the finalized assignment is 7-8 pages long.

just shoot me again man.

and besides philo term assignment.

there's english language group project.

phonological analysis of the HAWAIIAN language.

WHOO.

so exciting~

NOT.

have to write a 1000 word essay with the group.

but at least i like my group members.

whee.

gonna be good i guess.

soci reading is up to date.

philo reading is going to be up to date.

econs reading is lagging! =x

b.i. memorising is lagging! =xx

el is drowning me. =xxx

OH SHOOTS.

i can do this yahh.

read something from the soci textbook:

if you think negatively,

it's most likely that the negative thought will be realised eventually.

so, i must think that i can succeed in my studies!

and something from the philo textbook:

to succeed, be friends with your textbook.

i realised when iris and shermin graduate as official psychologists,

i can get FREE TREATMENT.

just like how i'm benefitting from my sis's medical knowledge now.

woohoo.

=D

AHA.

i'm seriously so piao-ah-piao.

ok,

i think this is sufficient to resurrect my blog.

sigh.

till later,

bye!

gaa,

i hate tutorials that i go alone for.

like for soci and the three bahasa slots.

soci and one of the bahasa slot aren't that bad.

coz i've made new friends in those.

but the other 2 slots are so not fun at all.

lucky iris.

she has og people in all her tutorial slots.

so lonely to go for tutorial by oneself.

ANW,

it's less than 16 hours till R set foot on sg soil.

WOOHOO.

am so excited.

tmw's going to be an eating day.

can predict that i'll be super fatter after this weekend.

plus i'm skipping monday's exercise session with iris and shermin.

UH-OH.

[note to self; a glottal stop]

oh man, i'm becoming a nerd.

but can't help it!

mid terms are in october.

and final exams are in late november.

that's in less than 3 months.

then it's end of semester holidays!

WTF,

I HATE LAB1201, PERIOD.

THE STUPID INFORMASI PROYEK PDF FILE IS BULL SHIT.

GIVE THE WRONG INSTRUCTIONS.

AND MADE ME LOSE OUT ON THE FIRST COME FIRST SERVED SYSTEM.

NOT ONLY THAT,

WENT TO THE CHATROOM TO ASK FOR THE LINK.

AND SOME IDIOT GUY GAVE ME ANOTHER WEBSITE.

WTF.

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SEMESTER TO BE OVER.

nus's be a runway model!

BUT how to join with my 26may knees!

=s

all in all,

i'm quite pleased with my timetable.

monday's a free day =D

BUT there's no lunch break for friday.

it's a lesson marathon from 10-12, 12-2 then 2-4.

MADNESS.

i hope i won't shrink in size.

but iris and shermin will be bringing me food at 2.

WOOHOO.

pig parts unite!

ok, i'm getting less pissed with the nus system.

my appeal got through yesterday!

woohoo.

so efficient,

point up for them.

right now i'm just waiting for a suitable tutorial slot to change to.

like playing stock market.

SIAN.

dont want to be sitting here all day! =S

wth wth wth wth wth!!!

I HATE NUS CORS SYSTEM FULL STOP.

how how how.

pissed off and upset at the same time.

how how how.

i want him back here with me.

=(

=(

=(

so upsetting.

14 more days till the 30th of august.
one week has been over and done with.
yaye =)
2 more weeks left.
hang in there!

and it's also past the first week of lectures.
next week, tutorial commences.
and hopefully we get our first choice tutorial slots.
so far, my monday will be a free day.
but no reason for rejoicing i guess.
free days are mugging days!

philo gem is very interesting.
what i discovered after reading the textbook.
the beginning is all about how socrates thinks he is wiser than everyone else.
and his speeches are quite humorous.
how can anyone be this thick skinned??

but any-oh-how.
i'm going to work hard.
and plan my time properly.
lectures, tutorials, homework, time with og, cca, meeting R.
being busy is actually quite satisfying =)

yaye!
am using the new google chrome now.
and it's fantabulous!~
super cool and easy to use.
my gosh, what an innovation.
=D

tmw is arts bash!
woohoo.
am super duper uber excited about it.
planning to ignore the supposed ongoing pageant tmw night.
and have our own boogie area.
lalala,
what's that,
you're getting a bad impression,
ask me if i care,
oh wait, hmm, nopes, i dont care.

gonna partaye with my fellow piggy parts!
=D
head and trotters, tail and snout~

can't believe i got pulled to step into zouk today for the supposed mambo thingy at 11.
a few of the guys spent hours persuading the girls to go.
and finally at the last minute,
me and eliza agreed.
!@#$%^&*!
reached zouk about 10.20.
and the only good thing about going was the foc ladies night.
otherwise you chop my head off and use it as a seat,
i also wont budge.
stayed inside there for about 5 to 10 minutes tops.
took some photos with the guys,
then zao-ed already.
zero intention of staying any longer.
sorry, people.

saturday night,
we'll have our own private boogie area!
=D

there's no nice shows on the telly these days.
not that i have time to watch.
but a few entertaining ones wouldn't hurt.

when i cry myself to sleep every night now.

today is day 4 of orientation.
it's so fun!
and ytd's stayover in school was madness.
had night games till 10/11 plus.
then went for supper around 1am.
had half a nasi lemak rice plate and teh tarik.
htht for some time,
then went back to sleeping area.
but sleeping was so not the agenda.
played games and htht some more.
till about 4plus am.
then htht some more with pighead and pigtail! =)
till 5 plus am.
didn't feel sleepy, prolly coz of the teh tarik.
one should NOT drink teh tarik at 1 am.
BAD DECISION.
but i wasn't thinking straight already by then anyway.
had to wake up at 7 am for flag day this morning.
so it was just 2 hours or less amount of sleep.
wow.
my shortest record so far.

and today's flag day was so eventful.
went getting money at tp.
then popped down to dhoby for movie.
hangover is such a crude show.
NOT for girls who are not open minded.
by any-oh-how,
i slept through half the show,
coz the chair was so comfy,
and pighead's sleeping bag was oh so squishy and soft.

then went to eat ben & jerry's uber big tub of 20 flavor ice cream scoops!
fantastic.
and everyone was just contributing saliva like no tomorrow.
but it was nice.
og bonding!

and so now,
i have still not gone to bed.
it's been more than a day since my last proper sleep.
yea man!

omg, wth.
the cors system and oweek programme is driving me crazy.
will decide tmw what to do for thurs.

i'd rather do nothing and be happy,
than do something that i don't like and be miserable.

yaye!
it's FRIDAY =D
which means the last day of my very boring week.
and the day before my ever-exciting weekend.

watched up sometime during the week.
not as funny as previous animated movies.
and this one was superbly unrealistic.

last night,
i dreamt of eugie, my family and 2 bees/wasps.
looked more like wasps to me.
it was 2 separate dreams actually.
the first one being me and eugie going to a toilet after some movie.
strange.
and the toilet was so dirty.
but the dirt disappeared halfway when i was inside.
and i was barefoot!
oO
the second dream being me and my family chasing 2 wasps out of the house through the kitchen window.
and i kept spraying insect repellent at it the whole time.
but someone told me the wasps would chase after the person spraying at it.

empty.
i wake up to an empty house everyday.

there's something wrong with my blogger website.
the box i'm typing in is so small.

anyway,
now that i've realised i can post,
i have 2 urges.
one is to keep shrimps.
and maybe eat them when they become bigger.
or maybe not, since that's so sadistic.
and the other urge is to lie on the beach of sentosa for a few hours.
so that the deadly rays of the sun will up my probability of getting skin cancer.
see,
that's why i said the moon should not move off the sun.
oh, the wonders of total solar eclipses.
i'm still wondering why some people think it's a bad omen.

and i'm still contemplating about a shopping spree right before the gss officially ends.
cue the wailing and sobbing.
thinking of breaking the bank just this one time.
for a good cause right??
BIG GRIN.
this is the last week i can carry out a proper shopping spree.
the next one will be in december.
if i can keep to my resolution.
GRABS HAIR.
should i or should i not have a shopping spree this week???????

my goodness,
i'm getting quite pissed right now.
and i seriously think she's trying to starve me.
i mean,
don't get me wrong,
i'm grateful for her offering to buy my lunch.
and even though i said at 1.30pm that i'm not hungry then,
it's already 3.45pm,
and any living soul would get hungry in that approximate 2 hours.
thank you for nothing.

today there was a total solar eclipse.
and i woke up at 8 am specially for it.
am proud of my achievement,
given that 10/11 am is my usual hour of peeking open my peepers.

not that sg's getting any 'total',
we were supposed to have 'partial'.
it was dark out the window,
and i thought the solar eclipse was getting ahead of itself.
but turns out it was just dark cumulonimbus clouds,
waiting to unleash its many little droplets of h20 mixed with acidic contents.

and so i turned on the telly to ch u.
watched the live telecast from china.
can't believe i put myself to listening to rapid chinese spoken with a curly tongue early in the morning.
but come to think of it,
with all that poisonous smog layer over there,
who can see the total solar eclipse,
let alone the sun??
shall give them credit for trying.

at about 9.30am,
india had the first experience of the total solar eclipse.
but they didn't have street lights.
so it was moon moving over sun,
moving,
moving,
moving,
taking its own sweet time,
moving,
then poof!
total darkness in the live feed.
except for the circular rim of light up above,
it was just black plus cheering/screaming/chanting from the people near the cameraman.

things were better when it happened in china.
at least we could see the host and the locals.
thanks to the wonder of streetlighting and thomas edison.

japan was supposed to have the longest total solar eclipse,
at about 6 mins 30 secs.

so the moon covered the sun.
and turns out,
the duration that the moon takes to move off the sun completely is about 1 to 2 hours.
oh my, yes, BIG GROAN.
no way was i staying awake till 11am for that.
the moon can stay over the sun for all i care.
then it wont be so warm in sg,
YAYE.

wow,
the next total solar eclipse will be in year 2132.
hope i'll live long enough to see it.
any tips for longevity?
i'll need to survive the next 123 years.

i wanna go horseback riding.
missed the very pleasant experience in new zealand.
it wont be the same here in sg.
there's no cooling wind,
no natural soft grass,
no acres of land,
unlike over there.
but it wont hurt to try riding in sg.
the few places in sg looks just a tad appealing.
shall look it up sometime.


i hate Hate HATE NS.
but i'm glad to say we're 1 and a half years left to its champagne-worthy end.
=D
can't wait for the commission ball this year end also.
maybe i should get that gorgeous black zipped toga dress for the ball.
but not sure whether it's posh enough.
and, and, and, school exams are probably this year end too.
from what i read before.
hope it doesn't clash with the ball.
what a downer.

come to think of it,
it has been a long holiday.
and not much meet ups with friends.
SIGH.
it's been a long while since i heard anybody calling me by my name.

and i discovered something about myself.
that maybe i'm scared of strangers.
as what my sis told me once before.
and sometimes i'm afraid of meeting friends one-on-one.

wondering how the camp will turn out.

i've given up watching my korean dramas.
too troublesome to watch finish.
heh.
plus there's only 3 weeks left till school opens.

new phase,
new school,
new friends,
(not-really-)new subjects.
WHEE.
at least there's one part i'm comfortable with.
econs lessons!

just got a new lappie.
but it's not in the colour i want.
and it's a tad on the heavy side.
not sure whether i'll use it for school tho.
but i guess i might as well accept the exercise i'm getting while lugging it around.
if i use this lappie,
then i shall get pretty accessories for it.
but i will still get pretty accessories even if i get another lappie.
=D

i love your rabbits.
so cute
=D

watched gu gu the cat on saturday.
and the story's not totally about the cat anyway.
so it was kinda slow,
but meaningful all the same.

went for the nus medical check up this morning.
and i took a freaking 1.5 hours to get there.
but coz of the major jam on the pie.
ARGH.
got my height and weight taken.
whee, i'm still 1.63m,
never shrink!
=D
and my weight dropped to 44.8kg.
didn't know bumming in front of the com can make people lose weight.
can forget about relying on the atkin's diet, southbeach diet, fat flush diet and other what-nots.
those dont work!
just use the bumming diet.
hehe.

i am going to dig out the korean food outlets at bukit timah.
yaye,
i have a short term goal in life now.
how exciting.

tonight was supposed to be durian night.
with super ex but supposedly nice durian from balestier.
but it was not mine to be.
oh wells.

wa, shoots,
i have no idea how to go uhc.
think i'll get lost on monday.
GAA.
or last resort,
take cab.

hello! miss completed =D
sweet spy now.
heehee.
dennis oh is so cute!!!
HEHE.

bong bong bong.
my life is getting mundane again.
i'm rotting,
and getting a tad flabby.
AHHH.
=S

hehehehehe hee.
'hello! miss' is so funny.
i've stopped watching 1% of anything at ep 19.
not nice at all.
hello! miss is nicer.
but their lead guys are hopeless.
one looks so old,
one looks like a cute alien.
but the girls are better.
the lead girl acted in that fake girl-cousin show before.
and the supporting actress has such obvious plastic surgery done.
and music is important in dramas.

AHH.
i got woken up by an attacking yellow snake nightmare!



wonder what it means,
oO

i realised,
that besides spiders,
i'm scared of snakes too.
GAA.

the dog in the unit opposite my kitchen's is so NOISY.
yapping yapping the whole day.
maybe i should throw a meat slab over.
if my aiming is THAT good.

transformers is coming out this wednesday!
whee.
an additional thing for me to look forward to.
=D

yhello, my blog,
i've missed you.
yhello, my korean drama,
hm, i've no idea how to say i've missed you in korean.
yhello, my missing readers,
i've missed you.

I'M BACK.
=D

this weekend has been fabulous.
social night on friday.
pubbing at clarke quay from 11 plus to 2 plus.
vodka orange jug and some slightly strong concoction of alcohol!
whee.
my first stay over at R's place.
=D
sleeping at 4am.
slacking on saturday.
playing a stress-inducing racing game on xbox.
satisfying my chicky wing obsession.
note to self:
abstain from chicky wing this monday and tuesday!
fried chicky wing,
you ji chicky meat.
YUM.

and our boys have re-entered army barricading gates again.
congrats to WZ for making it to OCS.
boys,
hang on in there!
i cant believe our protection is safeguarded by the boys from class.
there's this huge leap of faith in between.
hehe.
SHHH.
but anyway,
fact is still fact,
we girls depend on them for our safety!
lalala,
i'm spouting logical rubbish so early in the morning.

today i did some exercise.
i walked from the bus stop after the salvation army.
and i'm glad to say,
i did not pass out on the way home,
despite a lack of lunch.
cheng gong!
=D

some people show off,
some people get busy,
some people throw their frustrations and stress on others,
when they get busy.


i have gotten my hands on a dress.
and it looks exactly like the one worn by the lead actress in 1% of anything.
it's nice,
i love it,
but it's not mine =(

gaa.
i almost died of pain yesterday.
x.x

okey,
i tried learning the FF piece:
Ending theme final fantasy x
and i must say,
my first attempt was quite tragic,
a car crash resemblance.
gaa.

netbooks or laptops??
am waiting for the comex fair
=D
meanwhile,
shall do my homework for it first.

sat the circle line for the first time today.
WHEE.
only took 5 minutes to get to serangoon.
am excited at that notion.
but not very relevant to me,
unless i go to the northeast often.

YAYE.
my photocard driving licence has arrived!
or rather,
the receipt stating that delivery was unsuccessful has arrived at my doorstep.
hmph.
arrived just 55 minutes after i left the house.
ohwells,
nevermind,
monday, it shall be within my grasp!
=DD

netbook, Netbook, NETBOOK! =D

now,
i keep feeling like there's people stalking me whenever i step out of my house.

and i had a nightmare last night.
about a stalker outside a ski lodge that my fam was holidaying in.
and the stalker turned killer.
something along the lines of 'house of wax' and 'halloween resurrection'.

and i had to cancel my plans to go out today.
this is so frustrating.
half traumatized,
half angry.

ahern's where rainbows end is such a BORING BOOK.
gosh.
waste my book-borrowing space.
woke up this morning.
decided to read the book.
and it was so boring.
i almost fell back to sleep.

my parting is balding!
ahhhhhhh.

went hunting for a suitable one.
bought one.
but feeling so empty now.
even though it was on discount,
still doesnt cheer me up.
i dont know why.
dont think the one i bought is formal enough.
oh wells.
i'll be looking through someone else's armoire.
hope to find one suitable.

i am going to stop spending on apparels.
full stop.
unable to derive a speck of satisfaction.
maybe coz my armoire is bursting.
and i end up feeling like i wasted money.

final fantasy songs are so difficult to play.
maybe that's why it sounds so nice.
and that's why my fingers get twisted all over the keys.

geum jan di delivered a really nice sad song/piano piece at gu jun pyo's birthday formal.
trying to find that piece.

ahhhhh.
i heart the pool scene of the last episode!
ahhhhh.
heart times ten.
so touching.

omg.
omfg.
i feel so violated.
outrage of modesty.
invasion of privacy.
it's an epitome of stalker behaviour.
outright display of creepiness.

the doctor told me today that he followed me for the days that i reported to work.
pervert!
oO
=S
EW.
sick.
gross.
weird.
i was like WTH,
told him i wont be working at the clinic anymore.
omg.
disgusting.

people,
please steer way clear of the following place.
Dentijoy Dental Surgery
94 Lorong 4 Toa Payoh #01-28, Singapore 310094
Dr Ng Hak Sain.
DO NOT PATRONIZE THAT CLINIC.
this is for your safety, wellbeing, your own good.
dont say i didn't warn you.
it's not safe there.

thank goodness i decided not to check my teeth there.
dont know what else might happen,
when i am stuck immobile on the dental chair,
with the doctor sitting right behind the only door.

ehmagawd.
i've got goldfish eyes!
and i dont even know what made my eyes swell.
=S

sigh, this is such a time where i wish i was in tv shows or movies.
if i'm supposed to be in a gown,
i'll get a gown that's made to measure.

yaye.
my hair atop my head is growing.
can gradually bid au revoir to the octopus hair style.
damn you, be gone!

i dont know how long i'll last.
hanging till the string snaps.
with a fervent prayer.

omo.
use honey as a facial?
are we talking top grade A-type,
or pore-eating lousy grade honey.
give me the former any day.
the latter will just erode your face.
ew,
too gross to imagine that.

hohohoho.
i got my hands on the links to the websites!
abundance of korean dramas there!
woohoo.
so excited.
shall watch drama after drama,
and brush up on my korean.

muahahahaha.
i got my hands on where rainbows end.

there's crazy people at sbs!
oO oO oO
two episodes in ONE DAY.
omo [k].

FIRST;
was at amk hub to top up my card.
went to line up for the add-value machine near the bus stands.
and there was this super loud employee who was helping the lady before me.
"yao kao yun qi ah!
ru guo ni de yun qi bu hao jiu top bu liao card la!"
CRAZY.
since when does topping up your ezlink depend on LUCK???
there's something in the world called a MALFUNCTIONING add-value machine.

SECOND;
was on the 88 bus home from tp after dinner.
my card got scanned by the machine ALREADY.
and the bus driver said 'xiao jie, zai scan'.
which was weird, coz i saw him saw me scan.
so i slammed my wallet against the machine.
and HOHO,
the screen said 'ENTRY OK'.
then when i got off the bus later,
the machine scanned both my blue ezlink and the adult ezlink,
made that red loud sound,
but immediately showed a yellow ok one.
walked off the bus,
went off to the lights in front of the bus,
and the same driver was giving me this ugly look.
CRAZY.
so me, being me,
returned his favour with an equal (but i looked better =D) one.

pumpkin!
pineapple!

clubmarc online store has free shipping & handling for above USD 60!

must curb spending.

i'm so lazy to exercise!
it's like i can't find the will power to move my ass from the bed in the mornings.
today is the third day i've skipped my supposed swimming sessions.
shall attempt to swim tmw.
but always have this nagging excuse at the back of my head.
heh.
that i need to be home to wait for the postman.

LOL.
episode 6 is so funny!

OMT,

"
Recieving much attention for her role as part of the villainous trio in KBS ‘Boys Over Flowers,’ actress Jung Ja Yeon stuns everyone by committing suicide in her home on the 7th.
"

my gosh.
bitch much?
the bitch calling the girl 'bitch'.
i swear,
wine is thicker than blood.
take that.
in your face.
nobody deserves to have a sister like her.


ANW,
cant wait for my driving licence.
it's going to arrive one month from yesterday!
used my so-called gua fu picture.
as my mother calls it.

shopping for clothes excessively is so child's play/trivial/yesteryear.
but still, shopping for clothes, period, is fine by any standards =)
right now,
i have my eyes set on higher sights.
in two words:
vroom vroom.
you read that right.
i'm aiming to get my hands on my very own 4 wheeler that's ALLOWED ON ROADS.
*big grins*
not sure what brand to get.
but any-oh-how,
i've launched my car fund.
got one-tenth of the total already.
WHEE.

ambition is the (car) key to success.

GAA.
i cant stand copy cats.
it's like ruby g. copying mac a.
so irritating.
but wait, imitation is the best form of flattery.
i should take her in stride then.

guess i'll be blogging more often (like 5 or more new posts daily) these next few weeks.
coz i have NOTHING MUCH to do.

1) borrow story books from library
2) job at clinic [double triple quadraple ACK]
3) beauty sleep
4) korean dramas

GSS GSS GSS!

actually i dont really like big-scale sales.
it's so frustrating.
have to squeeze with other people.
ACK.
my first and most likely last sale was the crocs sale.
amazed myself even.

give me private, exclusive sales yeah!
got a few on my list alr =D
SHH (super hush hush).

1) email verification from f21 [shipment's on its way!]
2) qualified driving licence!
3) yummy goodwood park hotel durian cake!

i feel so blessed.

i spy with my little eye,
a familiar army green plastic bag.
that looks like goodwood park hotel's signature colour!



goodwood park hotel's legendary durian cake!
=D
YUM.



it's good to have you birthday smack in the midst of the durian festival at goodwood park.
=D

YAYE.
i feel SO liberated!
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST.
=D =D =D

but there were 2 glitches.
i did the entire circuit without having fully locked doors.
and my directional change was so crooked.

but WHO CARES.
i passed, i passed, i passed!
=D
hehehehehehehehe.

and then i realised something,
i'll have nothing else, besides my tri-weekly job, to do for the rest of my 2 remaining uber-free months.
WOW.
that's taking liberation to a whole new level.

any-oh-hows,
i can drive ANY car now.
manual, auto, toy car,
you name it.
those with 4 wheels, that is.
WHEE.

my life is PERFECT now.
=D

yaye
had a good driving session today
pray it continues on tmw!

my dad thinks the dentist is gay.
i'm starting to suspect so too
oO

2 more days to wednesday!
AHHH.
have started to receive best wishes.
AHHH.

woke up at 12.15 this morning.
or rather, this afternoon.
and every time i wake up,
i feel my head's like a tomato.




where my so-called fringe is like the green leaves on top.
and it's flying all over the place.
some standing up,
some on the wrong side of the parting.
gaa.
my hair grows so uber-slowly.

and so,
today marks the day i return to work.
ACK.
cant wait to see the dr's face,
NOT.

wow,
this is gorgeous.
satin is THE material.

OMFG.
PISSED BEYOND MEANS OF DESCRIBING IT.
DONT KNOW WHAT I DID TO DESERVE SUCH A PATERNAL APE.

i have an alarm set to remind myself of sleeping time.

i cant believe i lost sleep over some trivial matter.
it wasn't like it was life or death.
gosh,
i could strangle someone now without giving two hoots about it.



crocs sale with jie and daniel this evening!
quite excited.
first time in ages since going somewhere with my sis.
that's quite sad.

OMG!!!!!!!!!
FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO EXPLODE WITH ANXIETY.
this is bound to induce premature ageing.
BASKET!
that blimming nagging worry at the back of my head.
GAA.
just cant imagine the look and reaction of my dad when he sees the bill next month.
ok, chilllllll,
breathe in breathe out.
DAMN.
there's no one awake that i can rant to now.

oh my,
i went recklessly around yck today,
and the instructor still said i drive v well.
oO

7 more days!
AHHHHH.

sequins remind me of chiffon,
chiffon reminds me of barbie doll's fake hair,
and i HATE barbie doll's fake hair,
feels so icky,
ack Ack ACK.

i detest cowardice.
can be from myself, or from other people.
oh, the irony in the former.
for the latter,
it just makes me want to strangle people who lack the smallest and simplest courage.
'o, i dont want to take the risk'
'o, it's just so uncertain'
'o, i dont know what might happen if i do this that'
that's bullshit!
sheer, utter, complete snail dung!
for those people,
they'll never succeed in life.
pathetic.

actually,
come to think of it,
nothing's safe on the net.
so i'm cancelling the photo album/website project.
ha!
ask if you wanna see.

shall start project korea.
learn the korean language.
in preparation for my korea trip =D

sigh,
it's so like me to get emotionally attached,
especially to a beautiful place i finally can see for myself.
hokkaido, oh hokkaido,
i'll be back to visit you,
i promise!

currently organising my japan pics into a photo album/website.
398 photos!
for now,
there's only 10pics uploaded into the album.
wow,
way to go steph.
looks like i'll be in front of the com all day.

yaye,
just got my hands on 2 brand new levi's jeans!
one regular straight cut,
one slim straight cut.
plus it was on promo,
so i dont feel so guilt-ridden =D

i've decided on my signature accessories:
pearls and headbands.

=D

channel my inner blair waldorf
=D

f21 v2.0!

i wanna go back to japan!!!
GAA.

japanese fat rice,
cold so-men dipped in sauce,
cold weather,
nice tour guide and local guide,
eating ice cream in the cold,
seeing new places every day.
SIGH.

new resolution:
spend less on clothes in sg,
go for more overseas trips.

going overseas is so much more satisfying than buying clothes in sg.

KONNICHIWA!
watashi wa nihongo learnt.
aha.
hoteru des.

oh my,
i'm having back ache from playing piano for almost an hr.
looks like i cant do skipping now.
hehe.

sigh,
this is not as nice as the older version.

RIP, o, plaid shirt:

and i'm learning pachelbel bach's canon in D now.
whee.

and i learnt from my macdonald's incident.
this time i opened the gate,
to let the huge box in.
=D

YAYE!
F21 loot package is here!
in my room =D

but i dont like people waking me up!
GRR.
today at 10 sharp,
the postman rang the bell.
i was still nicely sleeping,
dreaming abt dunno-what.
went to the door,
shouted 'one moment please',
rushed abt like a mad woman,
got a coat and hairband.
must look presentable mah =D
then opened the door,
and mr postman kept saying sorry,
coz he knew i just woke up,
argh the bed head.
before i opened the door,
i just knew it's the f21 package!
and there in all its mud brown glory,
the huge box!
somebody say WHEE.

couldn't go back to sleep anymore,
so excited!
opened the box,
saw the huge bundle of clothes wrapped in white paper.
took my black long cardi out =DD
and tried it =DD
fits to the T =DD
perfect! =DD
knit ribbed black cardi,
GORGEOUS.

yy's cream jacket is gorgeous too.
smooth material,
should be body-hugging i guess.
i would have gotten it too,
if they had it in black.

so the long black cardi is going into my luggage soon.
today, actually.
if i ever got around to start packing.
aha!

and then after opening the box,
i had to figure out how to transport the clothes.
plus yy's bulky shoe box.
spent 40 minutes,
trying all the plastic bags, paper bags in the store room.
worked up quite a sheen of sweat.
exercise!
and finally,
everything fit into the og bag.
woohoo.

the story of steph's morning.
now i'm starving.

Label/Receipt Number: xxx
Status: Arrived Abroad

Your item arrived in SINGAPORE at 10:24 AM on May 6, 2009.

2 more days to departure!
have not packed.
the packing part is so mafan.
haiz.
dont like to pack.
hmph.

today i brought my denim slippers out for a spin.
it's first look at the world =D
owait, not really, but who cares.
didnt get it dirty nor scuffed,
yaye!

sadness, disappointment, frustration, longing.
just how many emotions can a body contain at one time.
i feel like i can implode any moment.

yaye!

Dear xxx,

Your order, xxx, has been shipped out on 04-29-2009. The USPS Tracking No. for your order is xxx. Please go to http://www.usps.com to see the status of your order.

To view your order details, please check under My Account at www.forever21.com.

Should you have any questions or concerns, please email us at mailto:online@forever21.com or call us at 1-888-494-EVER.

Thank you for shopping at www.forever21.com

Best Regards,

Forever 21

www.forever21.com

sigh.
why do most clothes not come in size xs.

omg!
ALLELUIA!
NUS LETTER IS HEEEEEERREEEE.
=D
what a thick envelop.
thicker than ntu's.

i think i'm going about mad about getting my hands on uniqlo apparels.
aha!
searching for hokkaido uniqlo outlets.
and the whole blimming website is in japanese!
but no worries =D
there's online translator service,
tada!
the wonders of the world wide web.

OMT, i feel so OOS.
just did skipping for about 3 minutes,
was staring at the clock,
and i was close to panting!
oO
but my knees hurt,
from driving this morning.

feel so much like a couch potato!
=S
slept 2 hours from 2 to 4,
then did 3 minutes of skipping,
which was quite poorly executed,
HEH.

anw,
i've got a suddent urge to go...
SENTOSA!
yeps,
all the tanning and sunshine,
i miss!
=D

oh noo.
two of my sims family members died =S
but they were elderly.
so it's normal right?
HEH.

yaye!
meet up with girls on thursday =D
at the central!
note to self: must control spending.
and dinner'll be at manhattan fish market!
yummy yum-o.

my goodness!
what is blimming wrong with this freak heat wave??
freaking hot!!!!!
GAAAA.
cant take it any more!!!
aircon aircon aircon *chants*

yaye!
got sims 2 on my pc now.
and a quaint little Chua family.
=D
hope they wont become non-achievers.

ahhhh, shoots!
ok, i bought my c&k denim slippers =D
whee.
HEH.
and that should be the LAST PAIR OF SHOES i'm buying,
for now.
no more space in my shoe cupboard for that c&k denim slippers shoe box!!
have to resort to placing that shoe box in my room by the piano.
GAA.
so, i've decided it's either stop buying shoes for now,
or get a new and bigger shoe cupboard! =D
aha.
like the 2nd option is ever going to happen.

exactly 2 more weeks!
to something good =D
and something bad =S

the good thing,
it's me zipping off to the land of the rising sun!
actually cant use the word 'zipping',
since it's going to take EONS just to get to hokkaido, sapporo.
SIAN.
have to take int'l ANA flight to narita,
then a domestic flight to chitose.
it takes 12 hours 20 mins just to get to chitose airport,
final pit stop.
crazy!
my butt would have expanded 30% more by the time we finally reach.

and the something bad.
9 days of outfield from 10th may.
uber SIAN-worthy.
gambate!

i enjoy, you suffer =S
GAA.




and i've decided to not give two hoots about how much my denim slippers cost.
just chiong ahead and buy it.
HEH.
cant wait for the stupid voucher to arrive one month later.
what if my denim slippers disappear from the shelves??
and what if my current silver slippers give way??
good excuse to get the denim ones ASAP.
=D
and i guess the price considers the denim material.
so, must be worth it!

she's so skinny,
it's almost illegal.

this weekend has been a really good weekend.
=))
bbq, cookie dough, hugs & kisses, alone time.
i'm a happy girl.

today i woke up at 10.
had chee cheong fun for breakfast.
then i went out to vivo.
to check my plaid top at f21.
sadly, they didnt have it in stores.
then i went walking around j8.
and skipped over to the library.
borrowed 4 books =D
one gossip girl, 3 A-list novel books.
then i came home.
and had milo and 2 biscuits.

aha,
sounds like some primary school creative writing homework.

OMT,
THE BLIMMING SHIPPING ORDER PROCESSED THROUGH!
FINALLY.
AHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
GOING MAD NOW.

oh my,
jurong point has everything!
cant wait to go there tmw =D

damn.
you and your dirty mouth.
yes, YOU.

sigh oh sigh.
there's a problem with the f21 spree.
cant place the order on the website.
strange.
how???
gaa, had a bad feeling abt it.

shall visit f21 at wisma tmw,
HEH.

and it's jurong point visit on sat!
hopefully,
if planning goes well.

and my spending is under control.
for now.
good good =D

i dont tolerate trash quality.
period.

i'm so bored at home,
so bored that i can just sit at the computer all day,
just staring at my workers in restaurant city,
and look at my cash amount jump.
WOW.

okey dokey.
we're one third done with the f21 spree.
stage one: get yy's and friends' orders.
stage two: get sis's, jacq's, eugie's orders.
stage three: send in orders.
left 2 and 3.
hurry hurry! =D

i dont want those insecurities in my head.

this is all too weird.
ytd on my way home from work,
some guy cycled past,
and ROAR-ed at me.
like wth??
he literally did that.
strange.

oh my, good good.
yy, hurry with the f21 list!
must make good use of that 35 bucks shipping price =D
eugie, add in your item too!

oh noo,
i calculated the amounts.
and it doesnt seem worth it to ship in the clothes from f21 USA.
hmm.

what's that 30days thing abt??

come to think of it.
everything in sg is very limited.
the activities to do,
the places we can go,
and especially!
the design of apparels, bags, shoes.
they're mostly the same everywhere in sg.
now must turn towards foreign imports.
like forever21 website!
=D
HEH.

hmm,
straits times front page.
less people want business courses.
turns out arts and social sci, science courses are more popular now.
hmm.

yesterday was a good day.
or should i say evening-night.
and anyways,
hogs breath cafe's pork ribs are uber nice.
thanks for the memories.

and to the girls:
item number one on the forever21 buying list,
green plaid blouse!
=D
come on,
fill up the list to our 75 bucks,
hurry hurry!

i think i've a hidden talent.
at cooking packet noodles.
GAA.
i've cooked till the zui gao jing jie already.
can tell the softness/hardness of the noodle just by looking at it in the pot.
aha!

i'm uber bored now.
seems like my current life is all about waiting.
waiting for the weekends.
waiting for my uni app result.
waiting for my pay day.
waiting for my program to download.
sigh.

i want this!!!!

tampines1

my verdict:
NOT worth the journey there at all.

noon,
i set out from home.
50 minutes later,
i found myself at tampines1.
the new mall of the east.

most of the shops are the common brands found in every other malls.
first disappointment.
level one was mostly diamond shops.
level four was mostly mummy baby shops.

as though the east had heaps of expectant mummies.
oO

but aside from that,
there were about 3 new brands.
springfield, uniqlo and some brand name that was so easily forgotten.
but even so,
the clothes were not appealing at all.
and a side note,
hypnosis was so SPARSE.
the racks had just a few designs.
sad case.

but one up side.
basement was all food,
and i'm glad to say there's a few new brands,
of which some did smell worthy enough to be tried.

final conclusion:
the place was a major letdown.

try harder next new mall.

next stop,
jurong point!

i'm so upset with restaurant city.
that's my favourite game on facebook now.
but it keeps not working.
TSK.

so much for 'end of april'
the earliest test date i finally got is on the 27th of MAY.
one day after my birthday.
hopefully the roads will be clear.
and the car brakes work well for the slope.
not feeling scared now anymore.
coz it's SO LONG away.
lalala.

so much for 'nice wool beret'
didn't know wool berets are so sloppy.
and soft.
and out of shape.
GAA.
but there's two up sides that comfort me.
one is that it should be considered as 3 bucks instead of 13 bucks.
and that it's not as expensive as those in 'accessorize' and other shops.
but i'm probably still bringing it on the trip.
just that it's too warm to wear in sg.
never ever going to spend on head wear again.
heh.

and i got cheated twice.
cheated my feelings, more like it.
first was at the stupid hair place.
second was this morning at forever21.
asked the salesgirl whether the beret is exchangeable.
and she said YES.
so i purchased it.
and tried it in the toilet for half an hr.
found it slightly unsuitable.
and went back to the shop.
asked another salesgirl to exchange it.
but she said it's an accessory and NOT exchangeable.
and i pointed the girl who said yes.
and she said that girl's a NEWBIE.
BLARDY NEWBIE.
never going to trust any sales people ANYMORE.
cheat my feelings and money.

popping down to tampines1 tmw.
since i'm so free.
AHA.
checking out the new stores.
especially uniqlo.
but their clothes are quite plain.
hopefully can find sth nice =D

got nothing much to do nowadays.
shall start planning my to-bring list.
hee.

and i'm starting a new project.
Project Catalogue.
to take pictures of all my clothes.
and organize into a photo album.
not sure whether to print the pictures out anot.
coz it'll be a waste of money.
about 40 plus clothes.
that'll come up to about not-sure-how-much if i print them in 3R.
hmm.

2nd anni =)

didn't know cutting hair can be such a traumatic experience.
i know i've been going on and on about my hair since monday.
but i'm not going to shut up until i find a suitable fashion cap tmw.
i MUST find one.
hmph.

i guess this whole incident has been partly my fault.
for stupidly going into qb.
and stupidly letting that SALLY LIM person to cut my fringe till the top of my head.
now the hair at the top of my head is at most 3 inches long.
GAA.

hopefully it'll grow longer and stop looking so pom SOON.

anybody seen this in stores before??

not necessarily this colour.

sigh, or maybe i should just wear a wig.

ACK.

oh gosh oh gosh.
i'm starting to hyperventilate.
there's no sg website selling berets!!
all of the websites are US based.
CRAP.
shall raid the novena shop tmw morn.
then zipping over to forever21.

i've decided to buy a french beret for my hideous hair.
and it's not wasting money.
can use it for the jap trip too =D

sian.
i'm getting bored and tired of driving already.
the internet part, the turning driving wheel part, the sore left knee part.
zzz.

actually i dont think i'm going to thin my hair anymore.
cicilla, how much your aunt charge for layering and abit of trimming here there?

GAA.
the stupid woman at the stupid hair place doesn't know how to cut hair at all!
now my hair is so screwed.
i look like i got ultra thin extensions instead.
and the top part is so weird.
blimming retarded woman.
shouldn't have gone to that place.

next time i'm going back to cicilla aunt's salon.
how much does she charge for layering/thinning and cutting abit ah?

shopping is joy
shopping is love
shopping is remedy

shopping is never a decision
shopping is never a chore
shopping is never last priority

my mantra =D

one day, this is going to eat me inside out and drain my coffers.
but who cares now!
hohohohoho.
live for the moment.
or at least for as long as your bank account stays above negative.

i realised,
that expensive clothes do not necessarily make someone look good.

ingredients of producing a well-put-together outfit:
splash of exquisite taste,
sprinkle of a cut-above-others fashion sense,
dab of nose power for fragrances,
layer of non-colour-blind eye sight,
pinch of touch for quality material.

and we're good to go.
the opposite of looking like a LBR.

gosh, the book is really rubbing onto me.

i fully heart durian puff! =D

Durian Pastries promo @ Goodwood Park Hotel. 13 Apr till 17 Apr 2009
-tualobang

reading a bimbo book now.
HEH.
once in a while must divert from heavy content books.

and AHHH.
must stop my eye bags from becoming a version of saggy boobs.

living a lie:
the same as washing a dirty cloth in the dark,
just because you don't want to see the black spots of dirt on it.

4 more days =)

today i had my one and only auto lesson.
so fun,
driving an auto car.
the pedals and speed are so much easier.
hmph.
and my knees dont hurt as much.

yaye!
i've found a black-gold link!
=D
the website displaying all sorts of sales.
with dates, venue and timing.
SALES, babeyye~

shh, busy now.

oh gosh, oh gosh, oh gosh.
the earliest test date is 21 may.
oh my, oh my, oh my.
so far =S





anyway, tmw's outing!
potluck [or if nobody brings any food then we call in delivery =D]
at kianzuo's house.
evening time can?
though not sure anybody sees this in time,
please respond sms!

trust me.
you will regret shoving my left shoulder.
you will regret calling me an asshole.

you are such a hypocrite.
the pot calling the kettle black.
you won't treat your friends like that either.

and i won't resort to physical or vulgar means.
as you would have noticed,
over the years.

you know you will regret it.
trust me.
deep inside,
you know.

and i'll have the final laugh.

OMT,

this is so gorgeous! =DDDD

i'm so bored, once again.
surfing on ebay now.
browsing large shades.
might just end up buying something.
GAA.

it's pay day today!
woohoo.
inflow of monetary capital =D

just changed my blog song.
the loud part gets irritating after a few re-runs.
HEH.
but i dont know how to put the 2 piano songs together in the same playlist.
hmm.
anybody know??

i've been on the computer since 11.30 this morn.
so bored.
watched finish 4 episodes of ai jiu zhai yi qi =D
and i've added the OST to my collection of songs.
whee.

i like piano pieces.
but playing them are probably not my forte.
hmm.

2 more days!
=D

people,
[not sure there's any readers left, but anyway]
let's have an outing on friday.
to send off those who are leaving for NS soon.
[sounds so tragic]
SO,
what shall we do on friday??
ideas pls!

my mother thinks i should get a 2nd job.
to occupy my free time during the day.
SIAN.
me and working are just NOT best friends.
no wonder they say,
like your job and you won't have to work another day.

oh,
the ironies in life.

lesson #18
topic #31
today was a review.
and the instructor thought i did quite well.
=D
2 more topics and i can sit for practical test.
AHHH.
scared =S

i'm starting to get lazy enough to not on the computer switch.
HEH.
but i've got an excuse.
coz i'm halfway through the first book,
in my pile of 4 books to complete.
hee.
turning into a bookworm.
now i'm reading mister pip by lloyd jones.
something about blacks and whites on papua new guinea.
can be a lit book also.
bookworm!

today it's mum's b'day.
and i haven't gotten anything for her yet.
oopsy daisy.

it was probably day three or four.
dont quite remember the day.
but i remember what you said.
just that one word carries so much weight.
and the hurt it causes.
you wouldn't know that right.
coz everything is about you now.
everything we talk about,
it's you.
everything we worry about,
it's you.
i guess it's always good to think about others.
but sometimes,
it helps to think about yourself.
else you lose your soul.

gosh,
always finding trouble for myself.
walked from j8 to bishan sports hall just now with a stomach ache.
to book badminton courts for monday.
but like the previous time,
no available courts!
HMPH.
then walked back home from there.

guess there's two good points here.
that i got home before it started raining.
and that i didn't have courts to book.
coz NOBODY told me wz and kz were booking the woodlands court.

anyway,
ntu is super efficient.
the deadline just closed on the 1st.
and the next day they sent a letter over.
it's an acceptance letter for my first choice.
but dont have that overjoyed feeling.
hmm.
so now it's to wait for nus letter.
and decide again from there on.

and i'm so lazy to learn the new song.
HEH.
played only the first few bars of kiss the rain.
then stopped and went back to playing river flows in you.
dont know why.
maybe it's coz the notes on my kiss the rain score are so TINY.
after a while,
i start to see many little dou ya dancing on the paper.
bad for the eyes.
TSK.

one should not blog when one is bloody pissed.
all the words from hell spurts out like fire from a volcano.

anyway,
just read finished joy luck club.
it's a rather lengthy book.
but the writing is just so intelligent.
lots of metaphors.
no wonder it's a lit book.

that book kept me occupied during my wait today.
stayed at ssdc the longest time in months.
had 2 hours of driving.
then settled down to wait for my queue number.
and lo 'n' behold,
i waited a little more than 3 hours.
for 60 plus queue numbers to pass.
but my wait paid off
=D
got what i wanted.
which was to shift my one auto prac from 4th may to an earlier date.
YAYE.
superb.

trying to complete and get my licence before i leave for holiday.
so if all goes well,
i'll be a certified driver by end of april.
HEE.
*fervently prays*

i think my mother thinks i'm weird.
[s bursts into parents room]
s: WA, HAVEN'T SLEEP ARH??
s: aiyo, so noisy.
m: ...
[s walks out of the room]

i LOVE confessions of a shopaholic.
it's all a rage right now.
mentioned on blogs almost everywhere.
=D
didn't quite bother catch the moral of the story there.
HEE.
but my favourite part was the swiping of credit cards.
and omt, the pink bimbo has 12 credit cards.
WOW.
*eyes gleam*
and the rich green colour of the scarf is just gorgeous.

my interest is clothes.
fashion and clothes are two interconnected worlds apart.
ironic.
but it's just not the same thing.
i love clothes.
but following fashion is just not up my alley.

and i just got another impulsive interest.
to work at a publishing firm.
since i'll be taking econs.
i'll prolly be looking at a business/financial newspaper.
AHA.
that's so bloomwood.

today i went to bugis.
and wonder of all wonders,
i didn't spend a cent there.
great achievement in fact *beams*
but i have my eyes on something.
a gorgeous white Guess wallet.
pree-taye!
69bucks if i remember correctly.
and i managed to steer myself away from the shoes section.

talking about shoes.
i've learnt not to wear the pain on my face.
but must control my whining.
HEH.
oh, pain in the name of pride and beauty.
=D
so now, i have 2 huge red blisters.
one on each heel.
GAA.

have this sudden thought of dumping all the clothes that have prints on them.
aha.
i'm over prints, graffiti, wordings, etc.

and the funny thing is,
my denim jeans are so loose now.
like they transformed into baggy pants.

next movie!
17 again
=D
it's the earliest movie coming out soon right?
should be.
HEE.

wishlist:
- more durian puffs! =D
- 3 inch heels
- pretty blouses
- straight cut jeans

oh yum oh yummy yummy!
durian puff cheers me up to no end =DDDDD
HEE.

GAA,
i have no idea what's wrong with me.
had a sudden attack of having 2nd thoughts.
kinda doubtful whether my 1st choice is the right one.
but my father and sister kept convincing me.
so in the end i decided not to change anything.
i think it's the uncertainty that made me like this in the first place.
oh wells.
must work hard from the first day of sch then.

so strange, i kept letting gas at work ytd.
GAA.
hopefully no one noticed =D
it wasnt often nor alot, but still.

my personal life is so boring now.
work, read, jigsaw, sleep, fret about money.
so mundane.

drove with a slight stiff pain in my neck today.
yesterday, i couldn't turn my head right properly.
luckily it's mostly gone today.
else driving would be hazardous.
HEH.

i'm finally clean!
YAYE.
can barely feel my legs anymore.
prolly the first and last overnight cycling.
HEH.

started cycling at 6pm ytd evening.
then cycled leftwards to some bridge.
sat down on the grass to play cards.
kz's bag had EVERYTHING, from mats to torchlight.
so well prepared,
made me feel so inadequately equipped.
then cycled back to have dinner at the hawker centre.
i have to admit,
this is my FAVOURITE part.
HEE.
ordered loads, had chicken wing *eyes gleam*, satay, carrot cake, oyster eggy plate, spicy kangkong *kz kept scolding joshua abt this, aha*, spicy stingray and sugar cane.
came up to abt 68 bucks total.
after dinner, went by the water sports lake.
tried to take shadow pics,
aha! jap camera's too powerful alr la.
took group pics,
but mostly messed up by kz and his ghostly effects.
then cycled rightwards to find shelter.
had 5 pitstops/stoning sessions.
aha!
then played with the candles,
our somewhat convincing heart shape.
then slept a little bit.
but kept feeling creepy crawlies on me =S
woke up at 6 plus,
ached like hell, GAA.
ate macs and rotted there, waiting for 9am!
so painful, here there everywhere.
but i conquered!
feel so accomplished =D
and when the ache subsides,
then i can finally have the mindset to say it was good.
right now,
i'm still feeling a hundred years old.

it's really clear cut actually.
you make your own choice,
you're either here or there.
looks like you made yours.

daddy seems pleased with the com screen.
he's been playing freecell more often.
i think it's coz the freecell cards are bigger now,
easier on the eyes =)

tonight it's just me and daddy at home.
sister's on call, mummy's doing her hair.
the house feels more peaceful,
less noisy.
or maybe not,
what with him clicking his pen and smacking it against the table top.
hmm.

i have 2 dreams now.
one is to get the sony vaio CS26G in blazing red.
=D
but sony is uber ex.
and daddy's banking on his 4D to help me get it.
=S
shall shop less now,
and chip in part of the price.

and my other dream,
to learn another piano piece.
not sure what to learn this time.
probably (omt, i almost forgot how to spell that word) kiss the rain.

reading the joy luck club by amy tan now.
must keep up my english language.
feel like it's slipping.
GAA.
the book, it's interesting,
mixture of chinese traditions and the american lifestyle from a chinese's point of view.

i didn't do sit ups yesterday night.
OH NO.
coz i felt tired by the walk from j8 to home.
weak skinny steph =(

did a little bit of exercise today.
which made me feel somewhat proud.
ok, immensely proud.
for fighting against and overcoming my leg's wishes.
walked from the bishan sports hall back home.
that's about 2 bus stops distance.
it's the most exercise i've done since the bball session at ahmin's!
WOOHOO.
good accomplishment, steph.
*beams*

and about the bishan sports hall.
the badminton courts are fully book tmw and thursday night!
GAA.
now how??
let's go bowling or do something else?

today was the 14th lesson.
did u-turning, the narrows: S course and crank course.
much easier than doing a right turn actually.
doing a right turn is my achilles' heel.
cant aim for the lane properly.
ARGH.
sometimes turn too much, almost hitting the centre divider.
or turning too late, then touch the left lane.
so frustrating.
am quite surprised i did better for the narrow courses than the right turn.

have this sudden urge to buy a bicycle.
so i can go round my neighbourhood.
and feel the wind in my hair.
=D
plus i'll be exercising too.
HEH.

yesterday morning marked the first day.
the first day of a 3-week-SIAN stint.

wow, and i just realised,
this com screen is so big,
i dont have to scroll down webpages as much as i used to.
WHEE.

finally my main com is up and working!
shall try to get used to it asap.
but not quite so excited about the new com.


anyway, it's been a good week.
busy and energy-absorbing, but satisfying.
had 2 stayovers, which did quite a bit of destruction to my face.
but it was fun, mostly surprised myself at the staying-up ability of mine.
first time, i stayed up till 4.30 and felt like i could keep going.
then the second, was till 5am.
woohoo, i'm getting better.
next time, i wont have to catch a wink at all.


and this week, i got myself a new bedside lamp.
a nice green flower print lamp to match my yellow walls.
and i'm almost halfway through my 1000 piece jigsaw.
which is a brilliant shot of a beach and island and sky.
yaye, it shall make my room look like a beach resort.
what with the yellow walls and huge jigsaw.
hunting for a nice bookcase to go below the jigsaw.
but the bookcases at ikea are so freaking ex!
hmm, ok, maybe not so, but to me it is.


and this week, i learnt to reverse and do directional changing.
it was quite fun.
but mounted kerb once, heh.


and this week, i worked two nights only.
whee.
the doctor closed the clinic on thurs.
plus, next week, i'm only working tmw.
whee.
doctor's on leave for wed and thurs.
starting to really hate working there.
or maybe, i'm starting to hate working. FULL STOP.
gaa.
even my mother thinks i'm like that.
she told me to take up the shortest uni course, business.
then get a degree and get married asap.
so i dont have to study or work.
great plan.
but not realistic.
=D


and this week, i met him every single day.
from the day he pop-ed.
feeling so selfish.
but i cant help it.
3 weeks till then.
oh wells.


and this week, i've been reading quite a lot.
still reading breaking dawn.
more than halfway through.
and kane, i did read jacob's story =D
coz otherwise how to get the whole story?
and i wasnt tempted to skip jacob's part at all.
but breaking dawn seems abit long winded.
and the writing seems simpler.
also read five people you meet in heaven by mitch albom.
it's a really smart piece of work and much planning behind for the story line.
read tuesdays with morrie too.
mainly about life lessons.
must say he's a good writer.

i'm so lazy to blog nowadays!
maybe coz it's so mahfun to type my super long email address at the log in page.
heh.

anyway, applying uni course now.
since 9.30 pm actually, till now.
and i'm only done with nus and half of ntu's.
SIAN.
the application process is so mahfun.
must write appraisal and my qualities.

oyah!
went IT fair on sunday.
WHEE.
had a good shou huo from the fair.
a brand new royal /dark blue 320G external hard disk.
so chio!
my new bao bei.
transferred my stuff from old com over.
and only took up 4G of the space, aha!
oyah, and the thing cheat my feelings.
supposed to have 320G, only let me use 297G.
where's my other 20plus G???
poots.
and my 2nd part of the shou huo =D
a brand new 23 inch computer!
WOOHOO.
but i think the screen's too big for my liking.
it's like when i play games then must turn my head from side to side.
and the mouse and keyboard are wireless!
but the mouse moves too fast for me.
HEH.
it's like i shift my hand the usual old way.
and PHOOM the arrow shoots across the screen.
overshot le =S

anyway, abit sad about the bintan thing.
seems like it wont materialise.
so it'll be a bbq + stayover at kz's house!
woohoo.
but this time must have more games and activities.
coz from what i heard abt last time?

4 more months to getting my own laptop =DD

when someone said A level phase is difficult,
was he talking about the choosing of uni courses??
coz it's somewhat a tough decision.
you have to do your homework researching about the many courses.
and deciding what career you want in the future.
was really lost at the first part.
but i guess i've started deciding,
it should start falling into place soon.

for me,
i've decided to become a teacher.
probably teaching mathematics.
that uni path is so confusing!
didn't know how to even begin,
like choosing which uni course then apply to NIE,
or applying straight to NIE now.
but any oh how, i'm going to take a uni course,
then apply to NIE.
that's what i've been adviced to do
oO

EE, my blog is getting stale.
sigh.
visitor/tag count is dropping.
aha!
hmph.




nus and ntu open houses this coming weekend.
girls and guys, let's all go together!
then wont be so sian yupps.

looks like we dont have to go to sentosa for a sun burn.
AHA.
now everyone's like me, red faced.
ok, maybe not everyone.




i'm so tired.




it doesnt matter.
just go ahead.
dont bother me.




we worried about our results.
now we worry about what courses we can take.
then after, we worry whether we can get in.
then after after, we worry about our first uni exam.
this never stops, does it?
sigh.
life of a being.

God must be really busy now.
actually, He must have been, since the time they announced result day.
so busy listening to the same prayers from many different people.
me included =D




the weird thing is,
we stay under the same roof,
but we barely see each other.
me and my screwed working hours.




wonder what's beyond tmw's release of result.
i mean, i won't commit suicide if *touch wood* something bad happens, would i?
this is MAJOR.
oh gosh, oh gosh, oh gosh.

it's raining so heavily now.
what does that mean?
tears of sorrow today,
tears of joy tmw =)

clique!
we'll meet at 10am tmw k, finalized timing.
=D
10 am outside thomson post office.
cya there!

i got my first month's pay ytd!
=D
didn't think i'll last that long in that job.
HEH.
but anw, getting the pay in cash feels so much better than getting it wired straight into my account.
it's like i can actually FEEL what i earn.
whee.

i was in the shower.
and i had an epiphany.
of what i would be working as in the future.

but first is to train myself for my job.
which coincidentally but obliviously is done by my father.
living with my father has more shortcomings than benefits that i can think of.
but one main benefit is that it trains me to be PATIENT.
and TOLERANT.
thus i shall start my training today =D




ntu stabbing episode.
david hartanto widjaja.
sounds familiar. HMM.
sounds like the name of that indonesian patient who came to the clinic last week.
shall check the records at the clinic tmw.




expect little.
to avoid disappointment =)

okey dokey, so the result day is confirmed alr.
dont freak out.
.
.
.
AHHHH.
GAA.
shoots.
*attempts zen mode*
not working!
4 more days.
i can live that.

ANW,
prata day is confirmed then!
finally some headway.

so prata day's on this friday.
meet at thomson's post office outside.
10.30 am.
=D

anw,
BINTAN UPDATE...

location >> nirwana gardens
hotel >> nirwana resort hotel
activities >> water sports at nirwana beach club
duration >> 3D2N
departure >> 1st week of april

=D
more details soon!

sometimes it's not the right time, or the right person to say something to.

woohoo!
i'm a happy girl =))
this feels great.
and i'm not going to let ANYTHING ruin my mood.
[not even you who's stealing my job, aha!]

anw i'm zipping off to the land of the rising sun during my birthday month!
YAYE.
mother says not to let anyone know.
but letting people know about this WONT HURT.
i know when to keep my mouth shut or open.
but anw, i'm so excited.
=D




from today onwards,
there'll be a section called BINTAN UPDATES.
it's to record the progress of getting our bintan trip ready and sorted out to departure date!
whee.
hope it'll be a success.

so today:
BINTAN UPDATE...
hmm,
in the midst of hunting for the best deals for hotel and packages offered by the MANY travel agencies.
and omt, i've never seen such a LONG list.
the list of travel agencies in singapore covers over 21 webpages *eyes boggle out of sockets*
i've only gone through 10 webpages.
and each webpage has prolly 30 -40 agencies.
but LUCKILY some of these agencies dont have websites.
which saves me a little bit of time.
aha!

and just a sidenote here,
most of the common hotels offered have room prices hovering about 100 bucks per night.
and since it's a 3D2N trip,
you do the math.
HEE.
and we'll be plonking ourselves in bintan from singapore by ferry.
that's what the agencies offer.
or would you prefer going over there by air?
tagboard your choice!

looks like i dont have to worry about it anymore.
the plan's fallen through.
it's not going to happen already.
i must say i'm quite disappointed.
but sure, everything else can happen.
i'm not going to bother about it.
you just go ahead.
after all i've put in.
dont bother about me.
just go ahead.

well, at least what happened can save me some money.
and i'll use this money for the other trip.

should i even bother about the other trip?
maybe i should try again.
put in the effort to fix it together.
and see whether it turns out well.
if it doesnt, i'll just look back and think of all the time i've wasted.
just like what's happening now.
let nature take its course.

should i even bother pulling things together?
sometimes it's not worth the effort.
coz the thing is like a glove that doesnt fit the hand.
or 2 like poles.

i must have been deluded by my own mind.
to think that it was such an important thing that can ever happen.
what was i thinking.
praying so hard for it to happen.
like she said, important but not essential.

i need to set my priorities right.

feeling a tad sick now.
my head feels heavy and dizzy.
and i'm having a headache.
not sure why, maybe coz i havent been sleeping well.
or maybe coz i'm hungry.
and i just ate durian ice cream and hot milo together.

i had a really sleepless night yesterday.
was thinking about it so much that i couldn't fall asleep.
tossed and turned from midnight till 1 plus.
and i had to wake up so bleeding early at 6.55 this morn.

i cant help but fret about it.
i really want it to happen.
i can't explain.
but i just know i'll be devastated if it happens the wrong way.
i'm praying superbly hard for it now.

hope i can sleep well tonight.

not sure what to blog about.
first time eh.
oh wait, maybe it's just me being lazy to blog.
heh.









i wanna go genting!
clare's mom pls say can, pls pls pls.
gaaa.
the anxiety is killing me.









tmw is my rest day.
YAYE.




am i being insensitive to your feelings,
or been oversensitive about the situation?
sometimes your words are just so hurtful.




for this lent.
i'm going to use the chance to repent and reflect.
it's not going to be easy,
but i'll try my best.
starting from today.
He will walk with me.

gosh, the dentist can be so demeaning sometimes.
just because you earn a thousand bucks a day doesnt mean you're above others alright.
what's with the "dont move your tongue, can you remember to do that" to the patient.
like we know where to put our tongue so that it doesnt block anything.
GRR.




on a happier note.
went driving today again.
and i'm getting the same instructor without paying for the fixed-instructor-charge =D
this time went round more of yck.
and cicilla!
i went to the road nearest your hse today.
HEE.
there was an accident on the right lane oO
nono, NOT my accident.
but i was so irritated with the vehicles in front that kept slowing down to see.
TSK.
and i drove past aj!
stopped at the junction just after the bus stop towards amk library.
and i saw mr duncan ang!
AHA.

next driving prac's on thursday morning at 8.15am
omt.
how am i going to wake up so early??
GAA.





and i'm going to paint my fingernails after i complete this post.
light blue nails =D
HEE.