sigh,

am still sick.

for 2 weeks alr.

today was mostly a bad day.

got back three papers - bahasa, soci and el proj.

am not sure how my bahasa score fared against the cohort.

hopefully i scored above average.

soci was bad.

el, i have nothing to say about it, sadness.

today i really felt in the dumps.

and so, to uplift my spirits, purchasing things was the perfect solution!

HOHO.

now i've got my hands on my new handphone - a smartphone =D

windows os plus qwerty keyboard.

now my feelings have been neutralised.

so weird that i dont feel excited about my phone.

the dumpy feeling gets the blame.

oh my, mac's mcspicy is the killa!
you get flamed when you eat it,
then you get flamed again a few hours later.
my first experience of the mcspicy.
*tears*
AHA.

bad case of blues =(
i dont want to return to reality.

wow, my mozilla browser looks prettier than my blog skin.
tsk tsk, what a disgrace my blog skin is.
ACK.
so ugly!

but anyway, back to my mozilla.
discovered a new function to it.
or maybe it's not so new, maybe they launched it years ago.
but i just found out how to use it 5 minutes ago.
mozilla browser lets people choose the skin they like for it!
cool-ness.
so i look look look and picked something pretty.
floating hearts are now in the background of the above portion of my browser.
WOO, nice.
and it's opaque at the parts where the file, edit buttons, etc., the website url area, and search engine box are.
my tabs are translucent.
loves it.

that's about it,
the boundaries of my IT skills.
sad, i know.
but doesn't matter!
not life or death.
ladida~

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

oyah, now i rmb.

about me starting to sleep in lectures.

=x

and it's not the same reason as last time in jc lectures.

jc lectures was so boring it put me to sleep.

this time, the philo lecture wasn't boring,

but i still slept!

while xmas white beard mr was talking and making people laugh.

getting not enough sleep.

but it's not extreme (yet), 6.5 hours for the past two nights.

sigh.

hello dear friends,

i know i don't see you as much as you see each other.
and this is going to get worse as time passes.
but it's less within my control than the module's.

i'm tired of past back-stabs, flitting acquaintances, lack of people i can bond with.
you're the first few people i can actually speak openly to,
have common conversation topics with,
things i can relate to.
i'm learning to trust,
trust you with my troubles,
all i ask is you trust me with yours.
and not be the last to know, if i do get to know at all.

i don't want a group of people i just joke around with.
i want to be part of a group of people i can call 'close friends',
people to share jokes and troubles together.

i hope i'm not asking too much.
and i hope you see this.