looks like i dont have to worry about it anymore.
the plan's fallen through.
it's not going to happen already.
i must say i'm quite disappointed.
but sure, everything else can happen.
i'm not going to bother about it.
you just go ahead.
after all i've put in.
dont bother about me.
just go ahead.

well, at least what happened can save me some money.
and i'll use this money for the other trip.

should i even bother about the other trip?
maybe i should try again.
put in the effort to fix it together.
and see whether it turns out well.
if it doesnt, i'll just look back and think of all the time i've wasted.
just like what's happening now.
let nature take its course.

should i even bother pulling things together?
sometimes it's not worth the effort.
coz the thing is like a glove that doesnt fit the hand.
or 2 like poles.

i must have been deluded by my own mind.
to think that it was such an important thing that can ever happen.
what was i thinking.
praying so hard for it to happen.
like she said, important but not essential.

i need to set my priorities right.